our loyalties are strange things. I remember as a boy being so angry at my mother for hitting me and then when I looked down and saw the whelps on my skin I totally flipped and started crying because I knew if someone found out, they would take her away from me. sometimes it just doesn't make sense,though I will say this. when you are a little boy and there is someone who is kind to you ,you remember it. Even if it is not all the time. I think that whatever you do you should probably check with your hubby first. it is easy for things to get twisted. just my opinion.
Towards thee I roll, thou all-destroying but unconquering whale; to the last I grapple with thee; from hell's heart I stab at thee; for hate's sake I spit my last breath at thee. let me then tow to pieces, while still chasing thee, thou damned whale! Thus, I give up the spear!"