I am a struggling survivor who at times still feels like a "victim".
Overcoming that "victim" identity is a good first goal. Most of us have been there. Ther boy you were was the victim. The man you are now is a SURVIVOR!
Despite the damage done to you, you have made it to this point of having the courage to deal with it all. Well done! Now go for it.
"When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown, the dream is gone
And I have become comfortably numb."Pink Floyd