Welcome. You are no longer alone. You'll find many guys here with similar childhood experiences, similar effects on our lives, and similar feelings.
Great news that you are off the streets and have an appropriate therapist to work with. Keep up the good work, stay determined, and you will make it.
"In the burning Heart, Just about to burst
There's a quest for answers, An unquenchable thirst
In the darkest night, Rising like a spire
In the burning heart, The unmistakable fire"Survivor