We understand the fear of sharing the events. Like the guys said, you take your time. It is okay. It took me many many decades to share in detail what has happened to me, and half the stories I may never share. But the burden of secrets is a heavy burden to carry. .. I recommend you wait not decades to share as I did... but do take your time. When you are ready, you are ready. And you are, as I speak, becoming stronger every day.
For now we see through a glass, darkly.