You are in good company here. We are men in all shapes and sizes, all walks of life, all ages, all orientations, and from several different countires. But the one thing that unites us is our childhood experiences, and how that affected our lives. You've made a good start by posting your introduction. Keep reading and posting when you need to get something out or ask a question. From this point forward, you do not have to do this alone.
"But now old friends are acting strange,
they shake their heads, they say I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day
....it's life's illusions I recall, I really don't know life at all. "Joni Mitchell