I just want to say some things that was on my mind late last
night BUT i will share this with you anyway.
Last night after karoake driving by myself i kept wondering
"why should i feel bad? Fuck Them! (referring to my abusers)"
I dont owe them anything and NONE of THEM OWN ME!
But i heard some wonderful advice here at Malesurvivor.
I have slowed down my breathing, my excessive thinking and
i do what i can , ie; lift weights , 12 step groups , and
singing . The weights and the singing in particular provide
me a high!
I am also a part of another organization that i mentioned
before ( IPA) and i bow to them....i have to say here TOO!
I went to one convention a few years back. And at these
conventions they will create a name to represent the function,
as well the group.
And i dont they hired someone , unsure but ths person came
up with the phrase " freedom to feel".
It received such incredible positive feedback that the group
decided to use it indefinatley!
Now i dont know who at Malesurvivor would like what.... i guess I am scared! I get nervous in large crowds like
being in a bar and seeing my family memebers laughing at
me. This takes time and work to heal (your),my wounds.
But i can HATE them! I dont need rules! Maybe the rule
shall not kill. But I Can FEEL! I can THINK! I dont want
to hurt anyone. I love you , I love me! So if it helps
you dont need Permission to ask for help.to love yourself
and to hate who did what to you! to remember we are here
for each other- never to be alone!