Welcome to MS. Like you, I kept a terrible secret for years before finally getting to the point where I just couldn't pretend like it never happened. I'm just a few years younger than you, so I know where you're coming from. What's more, there are scores of others here on MS of varying ages who can offer advice or just a friendly ear if you need it. It certainly helps me. Proceed at a speed you are comfortable with.
I ask you to judge me by the enemies I have made. --FDR
I remember redwood trees, bumper cars and wolverines
The ocean's Trident submarines
Lemons, limes and tangerines
I remember this… R.E.M. 1988Cruel SummerMy Journal