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#43434 - 05/30/01 09:38 AM Facing my fears
Anonymous
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My abuser's name is Donny Hanie. I am telling the world what you did to me. Donnie,I was only 6 years old. How dare you do this to a little child of God. Donnie, you took me down into your basement and took my pants down. Donnie, you inserted your penis into my rectum. Do you imagine the pain you put me through; I was only 6 years old. Donnie, I can still feel it today. Donnie, you put me through hell. you raped me, a little 6 year old child.
You took me on the railroad and raped me there. Why did you push my head into the groung when I asked you to stop? Do you imagine the pain you put my little soul through. Donnie, till this day I can remember the vasoline in the jar. I can still smell the the strong smell of the weeds growing on the railroad. Everytime I go near that area or smell the strong smell of weeds, I remember the way you laid me on the ground and raped me. How dare you! You creep. You molester. You destroyer of life. Donnie, I remember Donnie,I remember you taking me down in your basement again. This time you didn't have any vasoline; you used soap. Do you know how much you hurt me. I can still remember you up behind me forcing your way into my body. I can remember the terilble pain. Donnie, you terrorized me. I remember being down the seashore with my family. What were you doing there? Were you my babysitter? Why did you take me into the ocean, up to my neck, and leave me there. Donnie you tried to kill me. I was an innocent, little, harmless child. Why did you leave me in the water to die? Donnie, I remember you taking me up on a ferris wheel. Donnie, I remember you shaking the cage and telling me you were going to throw me out. Donnie, I can still remember the fright you instilled in my soul. Donnie....why, oh God why? Donnie, I remember the next day. You tried to rape me in the back seat of my father's car. I locked the door before you could get in. I remember you had the keys. Everytime you turned the key on the door I pushed the lock down. I'll remember till the day I die how you shook the car door and laughed at me. I'll never forget that terrible laugher and the pulling at the car door. Donnie, you hurt me for life.


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#43435 - 05/30/01 10:26 AM Re: Facing my fears
Brian B14 Offline
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Registered: 05/04/01
Posts: 122
Loc: New York
Hi Peter,

I hear you. I understand your pain and rage. Its OK to be angry. Get it out of you system.

Donnie is a sick evil bastard. He is surely going to hell when he dies. The devil much prefers gasoline over vasoline. Donnie is in for a long and humiliating existence. RIP Donnie! RIP Bob!


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#43436 - 05/30/01 10:30 AM Re: Facing my fears
SoCalJohn Offline
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Registered: 05/18/01
Posts: 510
Loc: Los Angeles, California
Dude,

I hear you. I am sorry you had to have a person like that in your life, what a nightmare. My oldest son is six years old and i thought of him while reading what you wrote, it just made me sick to my stomach.

I am glad your telling, people need to know what a a**h*le he is.

Your safe now, ok, this is a safe place and your lots bigger now, he cant hurt you anymore like he did.

Safe hugs to you, if thats ok,

John

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I asked him about this law he spoke of, he said,,, *watch* he then asked the others to share about their lives,,, the others talked of how things were for them, how things worked in their lives,,, and as they believed, it was so.

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#43437 - 06/02/01 12:21 PM Re: Facing my fears
Anonymous
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Thank you for your replies. Donnie has been dead for many years. I am writting this and other messages as a healing expereince. Thanks for your support.

Peter J.


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#43438 - 06/02/01 06:31 PM Re: Facing my fears
SoCalJohn Offline
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Registered: 05/18/01
Posts: 510
Loc: Los Angeles, California
Peter,

Good for you!! Do whatever it takes dude!

John

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I asked him about this law he spoke of, he said,,, *watch* he then asked the others to share about their lives,,, the others talked of how things were for them, how things worked in their lives,,, and as they believed, it was so.

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#43439 - 06/05/01 09:04 PM Re: Facing my fears
Anonymous
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i cried when i read your story. i cried for you and i cried for me. i never use to cry. i guess im healing. i hope you are too.


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#43440 - 06/06/01 07:33 AM Re: Facing my fears
goflyakiteV Offline
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Registered: 05/24/01
Posts: 66
Loc: n.a.
PETER.......WHAT CAN I SAY.....I'M IN TEARS FOR YOU. I HAVE A 2 YEAR OLD GRANDSON AND JUST THE MERE THOUGHT OF SOMEONE TRYING TO GET TO HIM IS ..........HORRIBLE. TO DO THAT TO A CHILD, MY THOUGHTS ARE WITH YOU AND ALL OF US WHO HAD TO ENDURE!

MY ABUSE STARTED IN A BOATHOUSE WITH TWO GUYS, THAT I THOUGHT WERE FAMILY FREINDS.....THAT WAS 47 YEARS AGO, I'M 53 NOW.

I'M GLAD YOU POSTED HERE PETER, MY HEART GOES OUT TO YOU, PEACE TO YOU TONIGHT...SCOT


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