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#434071 - 05/08/13 09:14 PM Many Good People
KMCINVA Offline
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Registered: 08/31/11
Posts: 1842
I have been on this journey of healing for a long time--but over the past few months and after last night's support group and hearing what other said about how I spoke, I realized there are so many wonderful people in this world, but I have viewed myself as unworthy of love. I realize I have some wonderful friends who have always been there for me, and other people I thought would be there for me were not there and I gave more to these people then those who have been there for me. I realize the abuse made me want those who in ways treated me like the abuser and I would distance myself from those who put aside my fears and distrusts. At support a few said they have seen a change in how I view myself and how I know longer want acceptance from those I love. Maybe that has been my problem, looking for love like the abuser gave and being treated like the abuser treated me--false love. Now I hope the healing and as my therapist says, the integration of me continues. That is all I want is to be whole and have what I deserve.


Edited by KMCINVA (05/08/13 09:17 PM)

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#434083 - 05/08/13 11:23 PM Re: Many Good People [Re: KMCINVA]
Jude Offline


Registered: 08/09/12
Posts: 1600
Loc: New England
Originally Posted By: KMCINVA
That is all I want is to be whole and have what I deserve.

Thats not too much to ask for. I hope you get all that and more brother.

Jude
_________________________
Seems I've got to have a change of scene
Every night I have the strangest dreams
Imprisoned by the way it could have been
Left here on my own or so it seems
I've got to leave before I start to scream
Joe Cocker

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