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#433920 - 05/07/13 07:28 PM Did I make the right move?
Life's A Dream Offline


Registered: 08/25/11
Posts: 886
Loc: Bouvet Island
I have this circle of friends, and one of them, R, is super-rich cuz both his parents died and left him a fortune. He frequently takes us (this includes the chick who took my virginity) down to the bars and pays for all our drinks. So, he's generous. But he's like a spoiled little kid, though. He buys the drinks, so he gets to do/say whatever he wants with you.

So, in the first place, he's constantly telling me to shut up and stop talking, while I'm trying to make friendly conversation. He doesn't like intellectual topics, and that's really all I know how to talk about. I'm socially dysfunctional in some ways, I'll admit it. But I'll simply be explaining hydrogen bonding or something, and all night long it's just "Shut up, Bryan. You talk too much." I take it, cuz he's paying for the cab and the drinks and how could I "bite the hand that feeds me".

Well, this isn't the real problem. Whether I am certain my dad perped me or not, this still pisses me off: he has repeatedly made jokes about my dad raping me. Ironically, it's the same goddamn dynamic I've always had with my dad "Well, he pays for me, so I better do whatever he says/let him walk all over me". Last night was the last straw. I didn't unload on him then and there, cuz I wouldn't have had a ride home if I did.

Today I cut him off. I basically told him "me being myself around you annoys you- that's your fucking problem. I'm too old for this shit. I don't care how much money you've fucking blown on me, you've repeatedly made jokes in front of people about my dad raping me. That is beyond not cool, dude". And since he's made of money, and he can surround himself with whomever he wants, and I'm very much replaceable, he simply replied "Fine. Later."

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#433926 - 05/07/13 07:46 PM Re: Did I make the right move? [Re: Life's A Dream]
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You made the right move.

You deserve to have friends who respect you for who you are. This rich guy sounds like a real ass.
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#433932 - 05/07/13 08:37 PM Re: Did I make the right move? [Re: Life's A Dream]
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Registered: 02/25/13
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Fuck him! Just because he has money does not give him the right to be a total douche bag to you or to anyone else. You made the right move.

That said, if you don't mind my asking, have you told many people IRL your theory about what happened with your dad? Did you confide that in this guy or did he find out from someone else? Not that it matters how he knows, I'm just curious. Either way, anyone who would make a joke about another person being sexually abused as a child, especially right to that person's face, is a total fucking toolbag. Yeah, fuck that guy. Forget him. Peace,

Ken.

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#433934 - 05/07/13 08:46 PM Re: Did I make the right move? [Re: BraveFalcon]
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Registered: 08/25/11
Posts: 886
Loc: Bouvet Island
I forget if I told him, or if I told his friend, C (the girl I lost my virginity to). I slept with both of them, so naturally they ended up asking me why I froze up during sex and spaced out. I think I told her, and she told him. I really need to be more careful about who I tell that to. Some people on here have issues telling others. I seem to have a compulsion to tell people I barely know about it.

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#433936 - 05/07/13 08:58 PM Re: Did I make the right move? [Re: Life's A Dream]
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Registered: 02/20/13
Posts: 163
Well spotted LAD.

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#433937 - 05/07/13 09:05 PM Re: Did I make the right move? [Re: Life's A Dream]
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Registered: 01/22/13
Posts: 758
Loc: upper south
Hey, LAD-

regardless of whether you told the insecure, arrogant punk or not, he was WAY out in the field of social unacceptability with the rape remark, let alone it was in a public setting. Like, way out of line.......as Falcon says... FUCK HIM..... he wasn't even man enough to apologize.

...."me being myself around you annoys you- that's your fucking problem"... I want you on my team, guy!

b
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#433941 - 05/07/13 09:22 PM Re: Did I make the right move? [Re: Life's A Dream]
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Is this the same guy who was there the first time you lost your virginity? If it is he came off very badly in your post on that topic. Either way this post suggests to me he is not a friend. He sounds entitled, angry, seems to use money to place himself above or in control of others around him. Just take his final words to you: "Fine. Later." Right there you can tell he is dismissing you and your feelings entirely and could care less if you around anymore. Of course, this could all be a facade he uses to cover up his insecurities but this does not justify his behavior.
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#433944 - 05/07/13 09:52 PM Re: Did I make the right move? [Re: Publius]
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Registered: 08/25/11
Posts: 886
Loc: Bouvet Island
Originally Posted By: Publius
Is this the same guy who was there the first time you lost your virginity? If it is he came off very badly in your post on that topic. Either way this post suggests to me he is not a friend. He sounds entitled, angry, seems to use money to place himself above or in control of others around him. Just take his final words to you: "Fine. Later." Right there you can tell he is dismissing you and your feelings entirely and could care less if you around anymore. Of course, this could all be a facade he uses to cover up his insecurities but this does not justify his behavior.


Yes, he's the same guy. And DAMN you nailed it with what you said. Very perceptive

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#434011 - 05/08/13 08:37 AM Re: Did I make the right move? [Re: Life's A Dream]
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Registered: 02/05/13
Posts: 185
Loc: Western Europe
You stood up for yourself and realized the situation perfectly!
I think you've made the right decision. You don't need to be dependent on someone who only rolls because of his money. If he cant respect you for who you are, well.. bad luck for this guy, but time to move on!

And LAD i understand your want to express your emotions and feelings to strangers. I would love to just tell everybody what has happened to me, but at the same time i know thats not in my best interest.. so try to be a little bit more self protective there i would suggest

You've listened to yourself! Very important imo!

Peter

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#434016 - 05/08/13 09:26 AM Re: Did I make the right move? [Re: Life's A Dream]
csasurvivor1992 Offline


Registered: 03/25/13
Posts: 132
Loc: Texas
GREAT LAD!!! you're SO right! just because people buy you things doesn't mean they get to walk all over you! good on you for setting a boundary! you deserve to be happy and if being around him doesn't make you happy, then by all means cut him off.

i am going through something very similar with my mother. A LOT going on there, but at the moment, i am beginning to understand her role in my abuse since my dad was my abuser. i displayed all the signs and symptoms of abuse and nothing. i didn't feel safe in my own home.

now that i realize all that, i am not speaking with my mom. all we do is fight and yell. i didn't let her talk to me on my birthday, first time in 32 years. it was hard. she texted that night suggesting that SHE was being denied the "right" to wish her son a HB. seriously? crazy woman. then she sends me a card and says, "nmw, i will always be your mother." i felt TRAPPED. no, i think a mother would be more loving and supportive then, now. i can forgive for the ignorance of the past, but don't pretend like this shit didn't happen.

just cause she's my mom and a non-abuser, she doesn't make me happy. she minimizes the effect the abuse has had on me. she's not good for my recovery and she keeps me in circles, spinning wheels, (insert analogy). I'm working, but when i speak with her, the work just seems to stall out. so, no talking with my mom for awhile.

good on you for establishing a boundary! absolutely RIGHT to do that!

as for telling other people, i would say absolutely tell people. just tell safe and healthy people. expect nothing in return other than a listening ear. remember that abuse is serious, the side effects we all live every day are disastrous if unchecked. you are a survivor, remember that. telling people, for me, has begun to help me lift the shame i've been carrying. the shame isn't mine... the shame of the act of incest, nor the shame in how i've responded in surviving. none of that shame is mine, and each time i can tell someone (safe and healthy)... i release it a little more.

i've also discovered that i don't have to share every detail. i've got a cliff notes version now... "i'm a survivor of csa." it works. conveys everything without burdening the listener of the details. i expect nothing in return... except maybe understanding.

BIG stride made in making that decision! BIG STRIDE! proud of you LAD!
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