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#433075 - 04/30/13 06:00 PM I Finally Stopped Being Stubborn...
Nathan Offline


Registered: 04/12/13
Posts: 4
Loc: Hampton Roads, VA
Hey guys, this is my first time back to the Forums in nearly a month (right after I first admitted my abuse). Four weeks ago I felt very empowered by the support of my parents and my ex-girlfriend and by the encouragement and understanding of the members on this site.

Well, in typical Nate fashion I was all-in in terms of my recovery for about two weeks. Then I kind of tricked myself into thinking "I Got This!". And I didn't have a damn thing.

Long story short, this past weekend I hit rock bottom and took a handful of pills and chugged 9 beers and went to sleep not caring if I woke up. Fortunately I did wake up and I've spent the past two days getting really real with myself and with the people I care about. And once I started I just couldn't stop.

I apologized and made amends with my ex, told my sister about not only my abuse but about the stupid thing I did on Saturday night. Then I went on my podcast and shared what I'd been going through. And then I started a blog as a place where I could keep account of my feelings and to tell my story. Then I scheduled an appointment with a therapist (something I'd been saying I was going to do for weeks).

I don't really feel good right now. But I don't feel bad either. I just kind of feel ok. And I think I finally learned that it's alright to just be ok.

The Road Less Traveled: My Adventures In Authenticity.

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#433080 - 04/30/13 06:40 PM Re: I Finally Stopped Being Stubborn... [Re: Nathan]
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Edited by bodyguard8367 (02/26/14 11:16 PM)

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#433082 - 04/30/13 06:59 PM Re: I Finally Stopped Being Stubborn... [Re: Nathan]
Nathan Offline


Registered: 04/12/13
Posts: 4
Loc: Hampton Roads, VA
Thanks for your support, Geoff.

It's a scary road, but I think I'm at the place where my fear of the truth is less than my desire to not get trapped back in that place that I was in a few days ago.

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#444045 - 08/11/13 06:45 PM Re: I Finally Stopped Being Stubborn... [Re: Nathan]
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Registered: 08/13/01
Posts: 1264
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I don't expect the OP (Nathan) to ever see this, yet I felt the link deserves a response.
I am SO impressed that you made the Public statement that u did on April 30, 2013. Maybe if I figure out how to respond to ur blog, I will.
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