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#432915 - 04/29/13 07:48 PM Because I cried...
csasurvivor1992 Offline


Registered: 03/25/13
Posts: 132
Loc: Texas
...today was better than yesterday.

Because I grieved, I no longer hope for the day when my dad will come back.

Because I let go, I have begun to figure out who I am.

Because I cried, I have begun to accept the awful nature of the experiences I endured.

Because I grieved, I have relaxed my expectation that the world will stop for me.

I see now what was done to me, the effects it's had on me, and the long road ahead. But today was a good day. I know they won't always be. Today was a good day and so I'll celebrate that. Because I cried.

I hope you can find the time to cry, too.
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#432930 - 04/29/13 09:18 PM Re: Because I cried... [Re: csasurvivor1992]
ThisMan Offline
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Registered: 01/22/13
Posts: 767
Loc: upper south
csasurvivor-

I am glad you are able to grieve today...and I am sorry you have the need to do so. It seems the grief doesn't start until we are able to acknowledge what was done to us, the terrible toll it has taken on our lives, on our spirits, on every thing we want and hold dear. The world doesn't stop, it doesn't even slow down and notice the man standing in the shadows of sexual abuse. And I have learned that even if it were to notice, it would not know what to do or say.

I am still discovering the damage done to me because of this THING that the world ignores. I cried today, just for an instant, as I have done almost everyday for 6 months, so I will heed your words and celebrate beside you.

Thanks for the beautiful posting.

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Edited by ThisMan (04/29/13 09:19 PM)
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#432931 - 04/29/13 09:29 PM Re: Because I cried... [Re: csasurvivor1992]
Shyshark Offline


Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 419
Loc: Canada
Last night I cried too ... and this morning ... and this afternoon ... and a little now.

I didn't find the time to cry ... it found me.

Tears have the nasty habit of doing that.

They first come announced ... and ...

Once invited in ... they never go away again ...

And for that I am very grateful.

Enjoy your tears ... revel in them ... cherish them ...

welcome them in as you would a treasured guest ...

because that's what they are.

They are only visiting you ... they don't belong to you ...

They are on loan ...

From the child you used to be ... to the man you have become.

A man strong enough to cry.
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#432936 - 04/29/13 09:35 PM Re: Because I cried... [Re: csasurvivor1992]
Shyshark Offline


Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 419
Loc: Canada
... they first come "unannounced"
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#433007 - 04/30/13 08:58 AM Re: Because I cried... [Re: csasurvivor1992]
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Registered: 08/29/12
Posts: 605
(((csasurvivor1992)))

I'm glad to hear you could let it out, it's a great release for sure.
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#433037 - 04/30/13 12:48 PM Re: Because I cried... [Re: csasurvivor1992]
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Registered: 05/16/12
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