She's gone forever, I messed up. It really is my fault this time. I miss her, it's been 8 months apart now and it's not getting better, I miss her so much. There aren't enough fish in the sea, she was the one, I loved her and I still do.
I'll keep pushing though, and continue to live my life. I just wanted to let someone know that I miss her and it's unbearable. I have to get to a better place, whether she comes back or not. We do not talk much anymore, I wanna let her know I miss her, don't know if that's good for me or not.
That's one strong little boy!