...I am finally dealing with these issues in therapy.....It's been a struggle and I suspect it is a long road to recovery but the stories I have read from the forums have helped me with some validation and that I am not alone.
MS has ben a great tool, along with therapy, for my own recovery. Exactly for the validation and sense of not being alone, that you have alrady found here. We are all from different backgrounds, ages, nationalities, religions, and sexual orientations, but we all have in common this one experience of boyhood sexual abuse that deeply affected our lives as men. You can safely share here what happened to you, how its affected you, and the things you still struggle with, without fear of judgement or condemnation. There's not much thats off limits here, so go for it.
When I first arived I was given the following advice which I'll pass on to you: "Abuse happens in secret, but healing happens out loud."
The more you talk about it the less power it has over you. Good luck.
"But now old friends are acting strange,
they shake their heads, they say I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day
....it's life's illusions I recall, I really don't know life at all. "Joni Mitchell