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#432554 - 04/26/13 06:16 PM LIFE IN HELL
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Registered: 09/27/03
Posts: 2972
Loc: O Kanada
Life In Hell

Some of the things I've seen ... seem so obscene
I swear they should've never been
Bad dreams ... Weird scenes
Flashbacks ... Splashed across a silver screen
X-Rated Disney ... Makes me dizzy
Keeps me busy like a dirty magazine
So extreme ... I can't come clean
You know what I mean
Cuz you did it to me real good
You did it so damn well
Such a sweet little innocent child
But you sentenced me to LIFE IN HELL !

LIFE IS HELL !
DON'T TOUCH ME !

You better beLIEve I ain't no saint
I'm no angel ... Never wrote the bible
I'm no devil ... Don't want no trouble
I'm a stone age tribal rock n' roll rebel
Learned my licks in the school of hard knocks
Locked my soul in a cold steel box
I earned my fix ... Paid my dues
Get my kicks being used and abused
I can't refuse
Cuz you did it to me real good
You did it so damn well
Such a sweet little innocent child
But you sentenced me to LIFE IN HELL !

LIFE IS HELL !
DON'T TOUCH ME !

Your kingdom is my prison
Your poison is my passion
This is my confession - I'm a sinner pure and simple
Sex is my religion and your body is my temple

LIFE IN HELL ... It ain't so tough
Some of us can't get enough of ...
LIFE IN HELL ... It's not so hot
Rotten luck ... All I got is ...
LIFE IN HELL ... Full of demons
Wheeling ... Dealing ... Stealing ... Scheming
LIFE IN HELL ... I must be dreaming
Every morning I wake up screaming ...

LIFE IS HELL !

-------author's note----------
these words were written over 20 years ago by me.
it was early in my path to recovery.
it does not accurately reflect my current state of mind, but i wanted to share it with you.
i found that writing my thoughts and feelings on paper, then reading them and forming them into songs and poems allowed me to look at myself from a different perspective. it was essential to increase self-awareness.
TRY TO TELL YOURSELF THE TRUTH, even if it hurts.

other poems by me:
http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=441557#Post441557
http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=441489#Post441489
http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthr...3020#Post433020
http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=441024#Post441024
http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=432554#Post432554
http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthr...5609#Post435609
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#432847 - 04/29/13 11:32 AM Re: LIFE IN HELL [Re: victor-victim]
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Edited by bodyguard8367 (02/26/14 11:09 PM)

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#432945 - 04/29/13 10:10 PM Re: LIFE IN HELL [Re: bodyguard8367]
victor-victim Offline


Registered: 09/27/03
Posts: 2972
Loc: O Kanada
thank YOU for YOUR perspective.
it feels good to share.
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#451671 - 10/29/13 01:27 AM Re: LIFE IN HELL [Re: victor-victim]
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Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 405
Loc: Canada
Hey v-v

I've been mulling over what you wrote ...

and also your commengs bodyguard.

I've reread this quite a few times ...

trying to come up with a meaningful reply

and after all this time

all this pondering and considerations

I have nothing ...

except the privilege of reading it.
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#452101 - 10/31/13 09:45 PM Re: LIFE IN HELL [Re: victor-victim]
SayItRight Offline
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Registered: 10/06/13
Posts: 63
Originally Posted By: victor-victim
Life In Hell

Some of the things I've seen ... seem so obscene
I swear they should've never been
Bad dreams ... Weird scenes
Flashbacks ... Splashed across a silver screen
X-Rated Disney ... Makes me dizzy
Keeps me busy like a dirty magazine
So extreme ...

TRY TO TELL YOURSELF THE TRUTH, even if it hurts.


I loved this. I love the title, loved the opening lines, loved the whole poem. Then I read the author's note, including the last line from the note that I quoted above.

Captures well one of my current challenges. I appreciate it.

Shyshark: I agree with your assessment too, and love how you expressed it: it is a privilege to read this.
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#452113 - 10/31/13 11:13 PM Re: LIFE IN HELL [Re: victor-victim]
victor-victim Offline


Registered: 09/27/03
Posts: 2972
Loc: O Kanada
i do so deeply appreciate and savour your feedback.

thank you so much. all of you.

it means a lot to me to know i can still connect,
although this is dark matter.
it makes me feel better to hear an echo in the dark.

please peruse my other prose and poetry.
i have poured my person into pages of print and perpetual posts.

the artist has only one project... his psyche;
a work in progress, never perfect.

thanks again for listening and sharing.
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