dumont, i experienced that exact feeling recently. if i am "normal" then what the hell does that mean? if normals experienced my shitty childhood, they'd react the same way... right? so what does that mean? that what happened doesn't mean anything and shouldn't have the impact it has? i don't freaking know...
boston bombing victims... recent amputee, she's already got plans to run again and dance! she overcame her trauma, why the hell am i wallowing in self pity?
truth is, what happened to us is the worst kind of trauma, the kind experienced at an age where we don't know how to deal with it, so we bottle up the memories and pain. now, we're ready to release it only to be the emotional age we were when it all started. the kind of trauma that seeps into every fiber of our being.
this trauma sucks. we deserve time to heal, to process, to grieve. we deserve it.
i believe mogigo was suggesting that we are normal. that you are normal. that thinking too much, being inside your head, analyzing everything, that's normal. if any other normal was sexually abused, they would be questioning things as well.
keep talking, keep working it out. it's normal. i'm in the middle of just that, now. also, i'm grieving. grieving the loss of a childhood i thought i had. it sucks.
don't just get over it. keep talking it out. it's normal.
May your past be the sound of your feet upon the ground, carry on. ~Fun.