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#432287 - 04/24/13 02:58 PM Songs (Pink Floys Mother) triggers me
Murph Offline


Registered: 04/01/13
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I am just starting to deal with CSA and repressed (or no) memories of my childhood up until the age of 11.
It is funny that throughout my adult life I have been drawn to certain songs. One is Pink Floyd Mother. Last night I watched the Sinead O'Connor and Roger Waters version on Youtube at least six times in a row. When I watch it, I also drink too many beers too quickly. For me, it is riveting, especially because I had a task master mother who was not afraid to hit me without provocation at a very young age; which set me up for the later abuse.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jNwXFnqBzHg
For whatever reason I think Sinead is a victim too, she certainly has problems, so it was another reason to bond with the song (again)

I am also hooked on Les Mis.

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#432296 - 04/24/13 04:20 PM Re: Songs (Pink Floys Mother) triggers me [Re: Murph]
Jacob S Offline
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Its really kind of fascinating how many of us found such meaning in Pink Floyd's songs. Yes, Sinead has said she was abused as a child.

Stay safe. I find music can help me deal with things, but don't let it torture you. Find a balance.
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#432305 - 04/24/13 08:11 PM Re: Songs (Pink Floys Mother) triggers me [Re: Murph]
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"Mother" by Pink Floyd isn't exactly a trigger for me but it is a beautiful song that I can relate in some ways to my relationship with my own mother and it can make me cry if I'm in the right frame of mind. Pink Floyd rules.

BTW, I think O'Connor is "out of the closet" as a survivor of CSA. I could be wrong but I swear I've heard about her admitting to it in interviews before. Peace,

Ken

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#432321 - 04/24/13 10:36 PM Re: Songs (Pink Floys Mother) triggers me [Re: Murph]
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I have Pink Floyd Animals on vinyl. Someone offered me $100 for it once, and I had to politely decline him.

That time on Saturday Night Live when Sinead O'Connor ripped up a photo of Pope John Paul II and said something like, "Fight the real evil." I was like, "What did I just see?"

A song that really triggers me is Maggie Mae by Rod Stewart. People say that they "like" this song, and I'm like, have you listened to the lyrics? This is *not* a love song. This is a song about a kid who has been abused by an older woman. Gives me the creeps.

Cant
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#432355 - 04/25/13 05:44 AM Re: Songs (Pink Floys Mother) triggers me [Re: cant_remember]
Jacob S Offline
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Originally Posted By: cant_remember

A song that really triggers me is Maggie Mae by Rod Stewart. People say that they "like" this song, and I'm like, have you listened to the lyrics? This is *not* a love song. This is a song about a kid who has been abused by an older woman. Gives me the creeps.

Cant


I just read the lyrics and at least it implies that the incident screwed him up. That's better than "Hot for Teacher" or other songs that just perpetuates myths.
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#432358 - 04/25/13 07:17 AM Re: Songs (Pink Floys Mother) triggers me [Re: Murph]
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Registered: 11/12/12
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Loc: Puget Sound
Music is really weird for me listened to all that British Invasion stuff growing up, loved PF still do, itís also how I judge myself; what can I listen to without losing it; it also becomes the backdrop for my life; right now I have the 3Ĺ minute shuffle/jam from Echoes on infinite repeat, Iíll listen to this, not exclusively for months; so much better than the depressing shit I was listening too, great music, just I was so damn despondent. I havenít been able to listen to PF for 20 years; maybe a little from their first 2 albums, Animals, or the Final Cut, as to the Wall, never really cared for it; too depressing even for me, Meddle, Atom Heart Mother or Ummaguma were always my favs. But I know that this is my way of self-abuse, just donít know how to stop. Trust me I get triggering music, itís why I canít listen to anything 70í from the RS, ďMaggie MayĒ, so right, and so apropos for me too; but I can listen to it, and I like it; some of the truth isnít as hard as others; or maybe more self-abuse?

Cee
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#432371 - 04/25/13 10:18 AM Re: Songs (Pink Floys Mother) triggers me [Re: Murph]
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Self abuse is listening to Ummaguma.

I have it on vinyl and even I'm like, "eeeesh!"

Cant.
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#432421 - 04/25/13 05:52 PM Re: Songs (Pink Floys Mother) triggers me [Re: Murph]
cosmos Offline


Registered: 11/12/12
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Originally Posted By: cant_remember
Self abuse is listening to Ummaguma.


LOL, best double album PF ever made!

Cee
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