Hey ((((( Gary ))))),
You know how I feel about your loss. And it hasn't been that long since your sister passed away either. Sometimes the people you love and want the most are the ones that leave for reasons unknown and the ones that haunt you linger on.
When I get down about my best friend, a person I knew, I lived with, I spent my childhood with and I loved so dearly only to realize that he's not here anymore, I play this video. I cry and I remember all the good times we had together. I remember lying on our mattress on the floor in the corner of the room in the village and looking at life magazine and national geographics or just holding hands together and talking or sitting on the fire escape gazing at the world. After a while my mood lightens up and I'm not filled with the sorrow of his passing but filled with the all the joys and good times we spent together as kids loving one another.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KB_k2BC0O58
I'm sorry for your loss but all I can say is that the love you had for him never fades it just gets stronger. His birthday shouldn't be a day of sorrow but a day of remembering the good times.Peace, Rainbows, Love & Healing<3 XOXOJeff