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#431921 - 04/21/13 03:45 AM sticking to my guns
HD001 Offline


Registered: 07/30/12
Posts: 205
Loc: IDAHO
It was really hard but I did it. I felt sick to my stomach and nervous as hell but I did it. I told H when he came home drunk two weeks ago that I couldn't watch him hurt himself anymore. I told him that if he is going to go out and drink that he needs to stay at a buddys house. (Normally I am sick with worry and wait up for him and then he stumbles in and vomits while I grab a garbage can and help him to bed). He acted upset with me and implied that I was treating him badly. I reminded him that we talked about this two weeks ago and that I wasn't going to be his enabler. And that it is just to heartbreaking for me to watch anymore. He didn't have anything to say to that. :-P
I then texted his friend who I know very well and told him that H would need to stay with him tonight and that I hoped that was okay. He said it was.
After it was done I no longer felt nervous. I felt empowered. I felt like I finally had cut the rope that ties me to his alcoholism. A weight was lifted. This really really surprised me because as I was doing it I felt super nervous.
I guess I'm posting because what I did tonight I feel was a big step for both H and myself. I gave him back the portion of accountability that I held for his alcoholism. I took it long ago and it wasn't mine to take. So it seemed like I should return it to its rightful owner. Now that he has full accountibility for his alcoholism I hope that he will be able to feel how heavy a load it really is. In time.
I'm really proud of myself. I just needed to share with someone.
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Everything comes from within

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#431928 - 04/21/13 09:23 AM Re: sticking to my guns [Re: HD001]
Candu Offline


Registered: 06/30/12
Posts: 312
Loc: Canada
That's fantastic. Good for you.

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#431956 - 04/21/13 03:00 PM Re: sticking to my guns [Re: HD001]
Jude Offline


Registered: 08/09/12
Posts: 1369
Loc: New England
Hey HD,

What you did took not only courage, but self-respect and respect for your partner. Boundaries are kind of alien to CSA survivors, and definitely alien to alcoholics. Defining your boundaries and sticking to them is a HUGE step. Keep up the good work buddy. Err...sorry, I didn't realize you were female. No offense.

Jude


Edited by Jude (04/22/13 11:13 AM)
_________________________
"When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown, the dream is gone
And I have become comfortably numb."
Pink Floyd

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#432004 - 04/21/13 09:35 PM Re: sticking to my guns [Re: HD001]
karin4him Offline


Registered: 03/18/12
Posts: 18
Loc: Illinois
My H is an alcoholic and a CSA survivor. I've been going to Al Anon and that really helps me keep things in perspective and is helping me heal. You've taken a huge step and I congratulate you! I also encourage you to consider Al Anon to help you.

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