I get bored easily, my attention moves from one thing to another, constantly seeking distraction or drama. If things going well at work, I'll probably orcanstrate an event that leads to some drama or some discussion. I'll screw with people, in a very covert way masked in concern and politeness. I'll get in your head, twist up your thoughts and introduce concepts and ideas that didn't cross your mind before. I convince myself I'm helping these people, helping them realise the world is not a great place. Revealing the hidden agendas in media and goverment, I often research the wild side of the stories, unveiling conspiracys and putting all my energy into it. This is one reason I'm tired, it's not easy keeping this up and the most fucked up thing is I don't even think I'm in control when I'm doing it. At all.
I'll come home, I'll find some means to get intoxicated, but to a reasonable level that is generally sustained. I'll play games, don't really eat; I care not too - I've decided to change my body and have been for the last few months. I'll do this till the early hours of the morning, only to give myself 4 to 5 hours of sleep as I have to be up promptly for work. This makes me tired.
I'm tired of these cycles I don't wish to break, it's not that I can't. I don't want too.
So, are you tired?