On Thursday morning I had my first counseling session. On and off the week before, kept thinking....I don't have to do this, I can bail, just not show up. Not even sure I will be able to talk. I googled his practice....was relieved I didn't know him. I located his office two days ahead, noticed I could park in back. I know I have to face this. It's time, long overdue.
So on Thursday morning I did it. In a room at the end of a long hall, behind a closed door, windows covered.....I talked about this aloud, face to face with another man. I told him my secret. Not everything, just the edges, but the truth. Enough. He knows. And it was okay. He listened. Asked a few questions here and there. But mostly he was compassionate. He understood. I am going to go back.
I just wanted you to know that I did this. It was hard, but it was good, it was right. I just needed to tell someone. Thank you for the encouragement and support the last couple of weeks. I could not have done this without your help.