In 2008 I was 51, still married, sober, in nursing school, the father of 9 children (#10 was still to come), finally on meds for bi-polar disorder, still secretly acting out, in therapy but still not telling the truth about being abused. It took me another 5 years to get there. Thats one of my adopted children, a soccer star, with me.
"But now old friends are acting strange,
they shake their heads, they say I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day
....it's life's illusions I recall, I really don't know life at all. "Joni Mitchell