Having a rough time right now.
My wife and I are both teachers. Yesterday we were summoned to the principal’s office. The guy who is in charge of investigating child abuse was waiting there. I immediately started to panic. i was afraid it was my worst nightmare - that i was being suspected of perpetrating CSA - that someone had found out about my history and assumed that the myth is true that “all s*x abuse victims become abusers.”
BUT – it was my wife that was being accused. She was put on leave and sent home until they investigate. We were not allowed to know who had brought the charges or what they said she had done. We speculate that is is a parent or colleague that has a grudge of some kind.
Of course, it is absolutely false. I would know – if anyone would – if I were living with a child abuser. We were told not to discuss it with anyone – that it was all highly confidential. But the principal announced it at a staff meeting and sent a letter to all parents. We are both feeling devastated, frustrated, hurt, angry, helpless and hopeless – ABUSED – in a word.
it wasn't my worst nightmare - but it was the next thing to it.
very disillusioned and ready to give up.
"Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself... And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with God and with eternity." - Paulo Coelho