Puffer I wish I had your belief in your soul living on after death just canít see any proof in it, sorry I canít trust dogma for dogmaís sake, itís not like in believing the sun will rise tomorrow, more like a belief in Santa.
Will the universe makes sense to me and has for a while, I guess heavy drug use does that to you, just that my recent acceptance of my abuse really makes me just step back and go wow! I never would have considered in a million years that my mind would be capable of such protection mechanisms as total amnesia? It just makes me wonder about the whole nature of consciousness, when I met my wife (psyche major) years ago she had just finished reading Jaynesí book and we would kinda of compare notes, my drug use, my reading of Castaneda, Huxley or even Leary, just never had the power to read something like this then, heck I havenít really read that much in 20 years, just technical stuff mostly, I had forgotten just how pleasurable it is to read something that pushes your level of understanding vs. just memorizing IP frame header info.
Understand that my drug use has definitely led to my understanding that your core identity is immutable and unchanging, itís the same no matter what, you are you. Typically though drug use eliminates consciousness and leaves you at the mercy of your physical body. See thatís why salvia is so utterly different, Iíd say hyper- consciousness and at the same time from somewhere deep inside you see visions, very powerful stuff, this is not for everyone, heck I even regret using it, it caused me to remember, a large part of me wishes I hadnít been so daring and cavalier with my drug usage.
"it has never yet been discovered how to make man unknow his knowledge, or unthink his thoughts"