Man I can I dentify with so much of what you said. My parents weren't addicts but I didn't get the love I needed from them. I was abused by both my older brothers and their friends and when I told my parents they pushed it under the rug....never to be spoken about again. At 15 I started 'prostituting' myself, though not for money. And like you have said - it wasn't all bad.
Just having older males caress and pamper me and give me things and treat me kindly was comforting to me.
I understand completely!
I am so truly sorry for what happened to you!!!
I am sorry your family betrayed you!
I am sorry those men used you. You deserved so much better.
I hope you will find this place a good support network for you (like I have). If you can get into therapy I recommend it.I am glad you were lead here. You have overcome so much already and I am confident that you have a bright future ahead of you too.