Whatever your story is, I'm glad you survived it to this point. "Destructive behavior?" The consequences you've lived with sound alot like mine and many others here. You are not alone in this.
Anytime you need to talk, publicly or privately, there's always someone here for you. We aren't therapists but we all "get it" and support each other. Be well buddy, you've got 11,000 guys watching your back.
"In the burning Heart, Just about to burst
There's a quest for answers, An unquenchable thirst
In the darkest night, Rising like a spire
In the burning heart, The unmistakable fire"Survivor