Whatever your story is, I'm glad you survived it to this point. "Destructive behavior?" The consequences you've lived with sound alot like mine and many others here. You are not alone in this.
Anytime you need to talk, publicly or privately, there's always someone here for you. We aren't therapists but we all "get it" and support each other. Be well buddy, you've got 11,000 guys watching your back.
I went back to the doctor
To get another shrink.
I sit and tell him about my weekend,
But he never betrays what he thinks.
Can you see the real me, doctor?. The Who