Whatever your story is, I'm glad you survived it to this point. "Destructive behavior?" The consequences you've lived with sound alot like mine and many others here. You are not alone in this.
Anytime you need to talk, publicly or privately, there's always someone here for you. We aren't therapists but we all "get it" and support each other. Be well buddy, you've got 11,000 guys watching your back.
"But now old friends are acting strange,
they shake their heads, they say I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day
....it's life's illusions I recall, I really don't know life at all. "Joni Mitchell