I have to say I'm a bit confused about this post. Its ok if you are gay and its great for you to accept that fact but I think you may be mixing the abuse with being gay. The pleasure you got out of having sex with these men while being prostituted may come from a wanting of acceptance and affection from these men, combined with the physical pleasure of having sex. Not saying your not gay but I think you need to think about if you are mixing the two.
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