didi,

I don't think it's just a matter of eye muscle control. Or at least I think there is an even larger component of psychological fear.

I think that something in my brain was so terribly scared when I was tortured that I lost control of this and other vital functions. I think that when I use my eyes together in the proper way it brings about a huge PTSD reaction, or maybe better stated, a huge flashback to when I used my eyes better and before the abuse involving torture. This makes it extremely difficult to use my eyes together.

Allen

Hi Allen,



I completely agree with you Allen.



Vision Therapy is difficult with the CSA, I commend you for facing your fear to try and
achieve Binocular Vision. It is down right scary to have to live through a flashback.







This was taken from:


The Ocular Findings in Child
Abuse
Robert W Enzenauer, MD, MPH, FAAO, FAAP, FACS
Assistant Professor of Pediatrics
University of Tennessee, Chattanooga
Introduced by Patricia Moody, MD
Le Bonheur Grand Rounds
11 January 2006
The Ocular Findings in
Child Abuse
Robert W. Enzenauer, MD, MPH, FAAO, FAAP, FACS
Assistant Professor of Pediatrics
Department of Ophthalmology
University of Tennessee
College of Medicine - Chattanooga

Yesterday I watched the big-screen 3D movie Pirates of the Caribbean, On Stranger Tides.

http://trailers.apple.com/trailers/disney/piratesofthecaribbeanonstrangertides/

It helps my eye problems at the stage I'm in and it's cheaper than vision therapy. But I have to explain this statement so that it's not misunderstood. I have had several years of vision therapy and I'm at the stage where a moving 3D target helps me to use what I've learned.

Allen

Doctors use vision therapy to treat traumatic brain injury. I'm sure I experienced that.

Here it is. This is what I've been trying to say all along:

http://www.dvidshub.net/video/283344/doctors-use-vision-therapy-treat-tbi#.UTwMIFc0_cw

Puffer

I just watched this again. It only affects a small fraction of csa survivors, but it's very important to that group. This issue has not been addressed in my geographic area.

It seems as though the natural healing is ongoing. Things like watching large-screen movies, especially 3-D movies helps a lot. Some types of computer use seem to help. But more than that I believe I had stereoptic or 3-D vision as a small child before abuse. My mother once told me that. She believes that my stereoptic vision got better and/or worse throughout childhood. It got worse after episodes of abuse. She was not able to make that connection. But then with the terribly severe abuse at age 12, I totally lost it.

Well, it seems to come back on it's own, but very slowly. It's almost like a little plant that will somehow find a way to grow through a crack in the pavement. If I had received proper and knowledgeable therapy for it I would likely have had a pretty quick remediation of the problem.

So yes, I have just a teeny-tiny bit of anger that I was told the wrong thing by some vision specialists who said I would never be able to regain 3-D vision.

Puffer