Will, that is a beautiful post and a really positive way to live. Not to ever hurt another living thing. Great. Your sons are very blessed as are you to be their Dad. Much joy to your family.
Bob

I have a sense of what you mean. My dad didn't perpetrate SA on me, but growing up to the age of 9 with a sociopath wasn't much fun. Then after that, he just left.

I was terrified for years I might end up like him. But what that ultimately has boiled down to, for me, is to take it as an example of how I should NOT behave.

Will, I havn't posted here in a while but I can really relate to this post. I too was physically and severly sexually abused groing up. I am still reeling from the hurricane of affects.

I did however, make a very concrete decision long ago, when I married and had children, to make damed sure my two boys 8 and 5, have a safe place, with a loving family to grow up in. I love them more than myself and cannot imagine inflicting the pain and hurt I was put through. Even though at times I feel like shit. It is very comforting that I could still be a good and loving father and husband to my family. Sometimes I get a bit scared I am goning to loose it, in front of them or somthing, but thank God it hasn't happened and I make sure they aren't affected by my issues. And when I see their beautiful happy, confident carefree, smiles it makes me wanta just try harder, and to some extent takes some of my pain away.

Peace, Dan