Vermont here....we're neighbors. You are wise to pace yourself reading and posting on MS. It can be overwhelming sometimes if you are easily triggered. But happy to hear you have made progress in recovery. We are all in different places in recovery. Different stories, locations, ages, orientations, but we find there is much in common in what the consequences of our CSA have been. Good luck buddy. 11,000 guys have your back.
"I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try and laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes
'cause boys don't cry, boys don't cry"The Cure