I reacted badly to the anger, and now it's really hard to get people to understand or believe me. Now that I think that I finally have one person believing me that I thought would be able to help me more if he did, I've come to realize that there is probably nothing that he can do even if he wanted to. It's really hard to get people to listen when you have reacted to the anger in a bad way. Now, I've been told verbally that if I do go to the police and report the crime that I could go to jail for a violation of probation (they won't put it in writing because they know they can't tell me not to report a crime). I was told that before I was believed, now that I think I am, it still probably doesn't make a difference. They tell me that what was done to me doesn't figure into things at all, but as soon as I mention doing what I should have, but couldn't, I get told that I probably won't be believed and that I can go to jail if I do. Sometimes it's frustrating, other times it's a relief. It's practically all there in writing. They have admitted to most of it. Also, my background was clean until this. The person's background is loaded; Broken home growing up. Mental illness. Divorced from an abusive marriage. Mentally unstable children.
I don't even know anymore how much I should continue to fight that part of it.
Is it worth me possibly going to jail to try to put them where they belong?
Sometimes, I relly think that it is worth it. Other times, I don't know.
"Every child asks the questions which hold the answers to the secrets of the universe, WHAT?, and WHY?". --Me