Vermont here....we're neighbors. You are wise to pace yourself reading and posting on MS. It can be overwhelming sometimes if you are easily triggered. But happy to hear you have made progress in recovery. We are all in different places in recovery. Different stories, locations, ages, orientations, but we find there is much in common in what the consequences of our CSA have been. Good luck buddy. 11,000 guys have your back.
"Stand, in the end you'll still be you,
One that's done all the things you set out to do.
Stand, there's a cross for you to bear,
Things to go through if you're going anywhere."Sly & the Family Stone