Vermont here....we're neighbors. You are wise to pace yourself reading and posting on MS. It can be overwhelming sometimes if you are easily triggered. But happy to hear you have made progress in recovery. We are all in different places in recovery. Different stories, locations, ages, orientations, but we find there is much in common in what the consequences of our CSA have been. Good luck buddy. 11,000 guys have your back.
"When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown, the dream is gone
And I have become comfortably numb."Pink Floyd