Vermont here....we're neighbors. You are wise to pace yourself reading and posting on MS. It can be overwhelming sometimes if you are easily triggered. But happy to hear you have made progress in recovery. We are all in different places in recovery. Different stories, locations, ages, orientations, but we find there is much in common in what the consequences of our CSA have been. Good luck buddy. 11,000 guys have your back.
"Suffering was the only thing that made me feel I was alive,
Thought thats just what it cost to survive in this world,
...now I haven't got time for the pain... " -Carly Simon now 67!