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I've used my pseudonym (Pero Peric) usually when I'm on line. It could be translated into English like Mr. Nobody. It is a real but very funny sounding name in my native language. I've used this identity to reach some porn web pages; I'm shameful because of this but I've accepted my past and my shameful side. Now I'm using this name just for healing purpose it keeps me somehow focused on my recovery.

Here is other similar topic where we wrote about our nicks and avatars in similar manner. It seems like good idea to connect these two threads

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=372432#Post372432

Pero

i came here after my daughter told me my husband/ her father abused her. then i did what mothers do and stopped the abuse, reported the perp. then he turned out as a victim of insane abuses in the childhood. my daughter didnt want him in jail and the other kids as well. i was in a place where i thought i would be confused for a lifetime.

Mine is pretty self explanitory too. :-) However, I chose it because I signed up right after I found out about my DH's abuse. See, I WAS at the point of giving up. We could not get any further in our relationship. I was making appointments with divorce lawyers and preparing myself to separate from the man I love. And then he came home from his counseling appointment, he sat down with me and told me about what happened to him. He had remembered a few days before that and he had no idea what to do. The reason we could not get anywhere with our work on our relationship is because we were putting bandaids on the wound with out treating it. At that moment - I decided from here on out, I would not give up on him, on us and on a happy future. SO - here I am with hope that we will live a good happy life.

Suwanee can be spelled with one 'n' or two. As a Native American word, It is possibly a Timucuan description meaning "crooked black water." This is a good description since the rivers on the coastal plain in this part of the country are often the color of strong tea. The color is caused by decaying plant matter. It's clean, but dark. The darkness is accentuated by the bright white sand bars along the river.

It is both the name of a town in Georgia and the famous river (as in "...way down upon the Suwannee River...") that flows from Georgia, into Florida and on to the Gulf of Mexico.

I've canoed the river many times over the years, so it is a special place to me that reminds me of good times.

Will

If you stand perfectly Still, he won't hear you.

Still here.

Still hear.

Still hurt.

Still there?

perfectly Still.

Still crazy after all these years.

You Still here?

a few months ago, I found a storybook called "Ben the beaver" in my letterbox with a note in it "for Ben, to say thank you. Found it on a flea market, thought you'd like it." I'm still trying to find out who put it in my letterbox, but it absolutely made my day.
It's about a beaver who wants to cross a big, wild river and finally manages to do so, because he doesn't give up.. kind of felt good to take it as a nickname for this.

Bodyguard8367 has been an online nickname for me since 1999. I first came online and was having trouble trying to come up with an email address. It was before people began using their actual names as email and Identity online. Most people were on IRC chat back then and using all kinds of witty nicknames.

I adopted it because I had this huge chip on my shoulder. I was so abused and had grown up so big. I was 6'4 and went 300 lbs. I was a very big dude...and I had undiagnosed PTSD, a massive inferiority complex, a huge voice and a big body. I would overreact when I felt like children were being mistreated. Most people were afraid of me before they saw me mad, after I had "lost it" in front of them they really didn't want any more.

so...bodyguard....and my birthday 8/3/67

Love you guys...
Geoff

PS not so mad these days.

I grew up on a farm and looked a lot like my avatar when I was first abused. Except I had blonde hair. It reminds me of the innocence I lost.

My dad was a farmer and I was a farmer's boy.

13 years ago I married a farmer (my beautiful wife) and became her boy.

3 years ago I gave up my job as a Graphic Designer to work with her on our own dairy farm so now I am a real farmer boy.

I ride motor bikes, horses, drive tractors, plough paddocks, fix fences, milk cows, pull calves - the whole deal.

I am a real farmer....and I am a boy.

.....although sense coming here I am starting to feel like a man.

Taurus is my zodiac sign.

Gretta was my most loyal sweet dog. I loved her like she was my child.