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#425994 - 02/20/13 10:36 PM To be Heard
dragon Offline

Registered: 04/17/12
Posts: 354
Loc: on the river between Hades n V...
When I needed you i knew you were always there
When I needed you you came quickly to my side
When I needed to cry you were my shoulder i could use
When I needed to be heard you were there with an ear

Bonds of brotherhood were broken by force
Over time those bonds broken by choice
When I most needed you I couldn't find you
The one I found wasn't inviting at all it was evilness

Abused and tortured over years melted trust away
I had loved you then and still loved you when you left
I never forgot nor could I ever forgive what you've stolen from me
Something of mine not yours that was taken by you

We found each other in times of need
Two souls that crossed paths in desperate times
You showed me to trust inevitably
You showed me what brotherhood and love was

When I needed you you were always there for me
I tried so hard to be there for you as well when needed
Both cried on each shoulders and gave advice when we could
You listened to me when i needed to talk and gave best advice

You were there always through my hard times
You listened to me telling my secrets i had hid from monsters
You learned of the monsters as I learned of yours
Joined together by fate maybe and many people

Months together I grew to trust you and love you
A brother of stature to me one to look up to
One that gave me advice and help through tough times
One that risked everything just to help a young child out

Then one day I find you were stolen from me
It was a cold day they took you from me
Brother to me no more you said to me
Broken heart, hell my heart ripped to pieces

You stood before me the person i grew to love
The person that was the person I knew but wasn't
They took you and broke you and you forgot me
Ever changed us forever as now you the older one is scared

Told of a status change one that the young one hates
Instead of standing behind me and comforting like before
My entrusted brother of status now hides behind the others
Scared of the young one as the young one is forced to train

Trust forever changed by a cruel man's chains and whips
Your brother you chose to call me
A little one
A baby boy gone forever replaced by you being afraid of me now

I've not changed but i can't show them that
I can't scream or holler or break down
They get scared should this young confused child errupts from fear
To them you are a soldier but in heart you are still the scared child

Wishing things were never changed doesn't help any
Placing one foot in front of the other moving forward
Forward in a time of uncertainty
Forward always looking back wanting nothing more but you back

Stolen again from me a love of my heart
Not but a couple weeks later from my brother of status took
Heart ripped right from my chest by bare hands of monsters
Placed back in front of me just a version of what i love

Fighting to get him and a brother to remember me
Fighting to get both to know the true me that hasn't changed
Fighting to save a brother and a love
Still fighting the fight and no where to turn or knowing what to do next

At the hands of monsters two were stolen and planted back
At the hands of monsters a young one being forced to train as soldier
At the hands of monsters a desperate child yearning for time to stop
At the hands of monsters the laughter and cruelness brought on

Not knowing where to turn this child just sits and waits
Waits for death as its so much simpler than living in hell
He hides in the dark under the beds and in the shadows
Scared to show his feelings anymore for they scare his loved ones

Crying out in pain but no one really hears him
Just thought of as a nuisance and a burden
Everything always happening to him yet getting nowhere
Children bound to monsters and a monster's way of life in darkness

Child cries out but his brothers and love don't hear him
They are hurting and in pain as well
Each living a tormented hell in the darkness of silence
Each with their own demons and pasts and hell coming forward

This baby boy as once was called is no longer the baby boy
His older brother is now scared of him for no reasons
He tries to cry out for his brothers heart and hands but not heard
His brother forever scared of this cherub prince

The little one crying out for the love of his heart
Taking months to reassure no harm
Heart starting to heal just a bit for the cherub prince
Ripped out once again only by his love and brothers

Heart broken and enraged building deep inside
Fearing he will become a monster like the tormentors
He holds the pain inside not telling then he is hurting
Would they even fucking hear him anyways?

To them he is one of them now
To them they can only see the status that was forcibly placed on him
To them he has changed
To them he can hurt them regardless the cherub prince doesn't want to

This cherub prince sits in darkness awaiting some one to hear him
Awaiting for the kindness and love he carries in his heart
Awaiting to actually be heard by his brothers and his love
Awaiting to be truly known once again for the gentle one he is

A mistake made by the heartbroken and hurting little one
Very much hurting and pushed to the edge
Not being able to contain he lashed out in pain causing pain
The cherub prince made the mistake he regrets of hitting his brother

A punch thrown and a smack to skin and soul
An older brother afraid of the young one forever instilled more now
A hurting young child crying out in pain
A pain of knowing a trust that was broken and a love that's confusing

Cherub prince why is it that you weep?
To be heard by the ones i love and not have them scared of me
I've not changed in my heart but they can't see it
They only see the title of soldier i am forced to carry

I want my brothers back like i once had months ago
I want my love back like i had once ago
I want them not to be scared of me at all times
I want them to stop thinking i will hurt them for i never could

Darkness surrounds this cherub child int he world of hate he lives in
Trust and brotherhood stolen from him
Wishing to just be heard by the ones he loves so dearly
Wishing they are never afraid of him

The little cherub prince sits in darkness head down
Not knowing where he should step to move forward
Not knowing whether he wants to move forward or wait for death
Encoding his skin with MONSTER as his sorrow builds

He waits back to the wall in darkness for someone to come love him
Waiting for someone to care and hear him without getting scared
Scared of what he is trying to tell them from his heart
He sits head down in a hateful world crying tears that none sees

He only wants to be heard and understood
He wants his family back
He wants not to hurt in his heart anymore
He wants to just be loved and to love without the fear
I don't want to look back;I just want to start again;Somebody save me--- Pop Evil: Broken and Betrayed

I want justice I want you overthrown;I want courage I want to stand alone;I want your arrogance and I want your pain;I want your everything and I want you dead--- Rev Theory: Justice

#425999 - 02/21/13 03:35 AM Re: To be Heard [Re: dragon]
peroperic2009 Offline

Registered: 10/09/11
Posts: 3566
Loc: South-East Europe
Hi Jayy, good to see you wink
This is very powerful poem that came right from heart.
I'm praying for every one of us to get family, unconditional love and safe environment.

My story

#426055 - 02/21/13 03:48 PM Re: To be Heard [Re: dragon]
bodyguard8367 Offline

Registered: 05/16/12
Posts: 1159
Loc: ""

Edited by bodyguard8367 (02/26/14 09:07 PM)
Edit Reason: SILENCED

#426737 - 02/28/13 04:55 AM . [Re: dragon]
Life's A Dream Offline

Registered: 08/25/11
Posts: 886
Loc: Bouvet Island

Edited by Life's A Dream (04/21/13 10:34 PM)

#428670 - 03/22/13 05:26 AM Re: To be Heard [Re: dragon]
mike13 Offline

Registered: 02/02/11
Posts: 419
Loc: California USA
Jayy nice work good to see you are still writing Mike


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