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#423579 - 01/29/13 11:00 AM from the inside out
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Registered: 04/02/07
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Loc: Denver, CO
I want you to stop
    trying to remember
the bad that happened
            when we were little

      We both know it happened
   We both know it hurt
    I hurt from it then
        you hurt from it now
I just remember more than you do

But I want you to stop trying to remember
     only all the bad things
          and instead
               walk through other memories with me

there were rainbows, and fields full of flowers
   hills to roll down
               or slide down when it snowed
milk weed
     with the gigantasaurus blossoms
                that would explode
      with a puff of air
                sending all its little angels with umbrellas
      floating
           and I would sit and watch
                 and watch
              and tell myself another story

I don’t know if you remember the stories
     I don’t remember the stories
          just that they always took me
                 somewhere safe

remember the sunshine
             laying in the grass
         watching the clouds go by
    dreaming of flying with eagles
              or swimming with whales

remember the shale mountain
      with the zillions of white snail shells
             to put on a string like a necklace

remember climbing to the castle
      where you could see heaven

I also want you to take some time
     and remember mommy and daddy
          because I miss them very very much
     and they weren’t always mean and angry all the time
               ‘til after the bad thing

remember the things that made us smile
      and maybe you can smile again
  and not hurt so much anymore

and maybe we’ll be a little stronger
      before the monsters return
             next time
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    https://1in6.org/men/bristlecone/mark-krueger/

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Alta - September 2012
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#423635 - 01/29/13 06:49 PM Re: from the inside out [Re: MarkK]
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very poignant and beautiful.
gave me a moment of peace...
i love it.
thanks!
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Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
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#423703 - 01/30/13 03:11 AM Re: from the inside out [Re: MarkK]
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This made me cry, but not entirely in a bad way.
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Like a spent gladiator
crawling in the colosseum dust
who can count on his remaining limbs
all the people he can trust.
Like the one who stands behind him
cheering him on
Estatic when he stands defiant,
wild with abandon when he's gone

just stay alive.
do whatever you need to.
you are worth it.

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#423905 - 01/31/13 06:56 PM Re: from the inside out [Re: MarkK]
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hmmm ... I'm still not sure about it ... it's actually for a writing assignment for my support group "What my inner child would like me to know" ....

But then, I'm never satisfied with my own work .... something else I'm working on wink
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#423992 - 02/01/13 02:07 PM Re: from the inside out [Re: MarkK]
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#425186 - 02/13/13 02:06 PM Re: from the inside out [Re: MarkK]
MarkK Offline
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i dunno ...
i suppose it means I can hear him
sometimes evidently even listen to him

but that chasm between us.... i think it grows more than shrinks most days.

thanx for the thougths - gave me more to look at.

this weekend it gets presented to my writing support group.

unless I chicken out... which is always a possibility.
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#425222 - 02/13/13 07:38 PM Re: from the inside out [Re: MarkK]
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MarkK

please don't chicken out.

i think it would be good for "BOTH" of you to share it.

and it might be helpful for some others to hear it.

if it helps, picture all of "US" standing with you because you speak for more than just yourself...

Lee
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As my life goes on I believe somehow something's changed
Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
What I left behind: a part of me. Chicago


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#425261 - 02/14/13 08:08 AM Re: from the inside out [Re: MarkK]
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Posts: 145
Markk

I enjoyed reading this poem. Far too often we forget to remember the good. I will try to do that today. Thank you.

-Jay-
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#426266 - 02/23/13 07:42 PM Re: from the inside out [Re: MarkK]
MarkK Offline
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Registered: 04/02/07
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Loc: Denver, CO
i was wrong
the beauty we think we see is just a camaflague for the horror behind it.

i was so very very wrong.
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