Welcome Francis! You've come to a place where there are men who get what you have felt and experienced. Generally you can be honest about yourself here, and not be judged (there's the occassional exception). And you can benefit from the experience of others who are further along in the recovery process. Post when you feel comfortable doing so, and read as much as you can handle in a sitting. Too much at once can leave you feeling overwhelmed, so pace yourself.
Most importantly, remeber that you are not alone. Sadly there are more than 11,000 of us who were sexually abused as boys on this site. But the good news is that you now have a source of support and help that can move you along the path of recovery.
Do the work and you'll reap the benefits.
Seems I've got to have a change of scene
Every night I have the strangest dreams
Imprisoned by the way it could have been
Left here on my own or so it seems
I've got to leave before I start to screamJoe Cocker