Thanks for sharing your story. That's realy a big step. Well done.
I think the mind must protect its self at all cost. If there is some thing that seems like that could take us out, the mind covers for us. I think when you are ready to handle more it will become avalable. But I think you may have enough to work with at this point.
You may be ready because you are asking the question. I just can't say enught to take this slow and not to push yourself or even let a T push you into remembering if there is resistance to remembering. Give your self all the time you need to rember when you are ready.
Did you ever go stay with you perp. like he tryed to set up?
The memories are all there you don't need to relive them to get better.
But as time continues, you will get the answers you are looking for.
You can be sure that the damage to you will not be lessened by knowing for sure how far things went. At this point the damage to you is the same. You won't become more or less harmed by knowing exactly what happen. To much to fast could be more harmful I think.
Can you get in to counseling and feel safe?
Edited by SmartShadow (02/11/13 05:56 PM)
Note to self:
Stand up and keep your footing,
You are not alone. This place is full of people who will reach out to help.