Well, anger surfaces again. Guess I still have stuff to work out. Just when you think you have something beaten for good, a new challenge comes along so I post to vent because it rattles me, but here I get good advice and support. The really cool thing now for me is this. I know I am not alone anymore. Not alone! I have friends here, and I have Him too. So with Him I'll push though this too and keep going, that I promise. In three weeks I'll get the chance to tell two more family members about this. Told two already, so just three to go. This telling stuff is freeing too, like one more chain broken and for good, and in this thread I can say I know who is breaking those chains.
I have now testified 5 times at three churches, and I will testify wherever I am asked to speak. I know where I was, and where I am, and who brought me here. Thing I realized lately is that if I forget where I was, I might take for granted this new freedom and who gave it to me. My mentor at church reminded me again too that I was never, ever defined by what people did or said to me, I am defined by God alone and He says I am a masterpiece. You too.
“We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark. The real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light.” - Plato