You can also begin by telling your story here to us, your brothers, in as much honest detail as you can handle.
Don't worry if you don't get it complete or right the first time. All of our abuse narratives go through drafts as we better understand ourselves and our stories.
"There is a Catskill eagle in some souls that can alike dive down into the blackest gorges, and soar out of them again and become invisible in the sunny spaces... even in his lowest swoop the mountain eagle is still higher than other birds upon the plain, even though they soar." -- from Moby-Dick