I had posted a week or so ago in one of the forums that I had been working on a creative project related to the CSA and ASA. I did. Five pieces are now completed and I wanted to share them with someone, so I chose my therapist. Trust her immensely. On the first one, she teared up. On the second, she teared up. By piece number 5, she cried. I wasn't stoic, but I guess I disassociated from the victim role AGAIN and was present as the artist. I didn't tear up- I had when I created them, but not today. They were powerful and emotional and from the heart. I know that. But I felt sort of bad that I triggered her tears. And then again, I want people to know when I present them publicly... I don't know. I just want the world to understand what we understand.

billray -
i applaud and commend you, sir!
please seriously consider finding a way to make your art visible and accessible to the public.
if it has this effect upon someone who has presumably heard and see a lot of suffering - it must be powerful and eloquent.
i believe it will help outsiders to understand our experiences better.
and i hope it would also help you in taking back control in your own life and recovery.
Lee

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