I know how hard it is to break the silence, it took me 42 years to do so. But the trade off is that by letting it out you will open the door to greater healing. Take your time, don't be pressured. But don't wait a lifetime either. You will know when its right.
"But now old friends are acting strange,
they shake their heads, they say I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day
....it's life's illusions I recall, I really don't know life at all. "Joni Mitchell