Trust me on this one, the actions come first and then the feelings as in start treating yourself like you belong and like you count and start taking care of yourself, even if it is just making sure you have a clean room to come home to when you go out, treat yourself sometimes, start being your own best friend, congratulate yourself on all your successes, no matter how small, and just keep faking it if thats how you have to look at it until the feelings catch up with you and you start feeling all those things.
I know that place of fear and self imposed isolation, i still fight it and regularly have to force myself to get out and interact and do all the things i mentioned that you might try. Its a fucking battle sometimes, but you know what, it is one that is worthy of your best efforts, or so i keep telling myself, i guess the bottom line is i am with me more than anyone else in the world and i just figure if i dont be my own best friend and take good care of me the best i can that i am in a pretty shitty place for sure, and sliding downhill fast.
I choose to be nice to me, to be the best friend i can be to me, a lot of times i am the only one i got.
[john] hugs kevin, your not so alone my friend...
I asked him about this law he spoke of, he said,,, *watch* he then asked the others to share about their lives,,, the others talked of how things were for them, how things worked in their lives,,, and as they believed, it was so.