Holy crap. It feels good to be back on the site. Yesterday, I was walking through a lobby, just after 90 minutes with a new therapist (one who's practice practically describes me... CSA and all that bullshit), feeling very surreal and on the verge of chaos, but I'm in much better shape now, if only because I feel less raw.

And so I've decided to come back onto malesurvivor to share and seek support.

Also, last week I told first my father and then my mother the truth about what happened when I was a kid. It was pretty OK, as experiences go. I'm tougher than I used to be, so it wasn't a sob-fest. I just told them that I was about to freak them out, that the news was both a big deal and not that big a deal, and then I just explained what happened.

And so... here I am, trying to muddle my way forward.

Bob

Hey Bob,
great that you re-started therapy, I hope you'll get along with therapist and get needed support from him.

Wow, you told your parents? That is great!
I tried to tell something to my father recently and just couldn't do it. There was too much shame and guilt for me so I was closed and just couldn't do it.

Keep sharing with us. Every single win counts in this battle

Pero

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Thanks, Gary. Happy new year to you.

And thank you, too, pero. I hope you had good holidays. I'm glad to be back, sort of.

Good job Bob! I'm no where close to being able to talk to my folks about it.

I think about telling my folks what happened as a kid, but I'm afraid of their response. It would just crush them. It might help me to say it, but I'm not sure I want to subject them to this topic. I know they would feel guilty for not protecting their son, when there was nothing they could have done to protect me. They may be better of never knowing what happened.