It is my next project - to confront him and ask him why.
This is strange timing for me...that you are bringing this up now. I've been stuck in "how dare they?!!" Better put: "HOW FKG DARE THEY??? HOW DARE YOU DO THAT TO ME!?!?!"
I've openly forgiven them, but I still want to ask them that. I NEED
to know. I NEED
to know in the worst way!
I've not confronted the older boys yet. They are the ones. I want to talk to them and ask them SO many questions and let them know I'm here and I have not forgotten. Time did not save them from memory or God's view. I NEED to tell them that being 12-18yrs-old was not an excuse. My silence ought not ever
be interpreted as an acquittal. That they are damned if they don't repent and ask God for forgiveness --- weather they believe in him or not, I get to proclaim MY deal. I get to hold them accountable! I get to review, judge and forgive.
Given the evil I saw first-hand with Dean, John, Mark and Jeffrey, I can guess that any still alive will be slain by a proclamation of forgiveness.
And after I tell them I forgive them, wish them well (yes, wish them well), I can turn my back on them and walk away...never to hold them in any contempt again.
I don't envy you with this project, but I truly hope you can derive everything you need and more.