Welcome to MS. We are men of all ages, all walks of life, with one thing in common: we were all sexually abused at some point in our lives. You will find alot of men's stories here, some like yours, some very different, but the results that we all live with: shame, anger, fear, difficulty with sexuality and relationships, are similar no matter what we've been through.
Keep posting and reading. You'll find alot of support here. Good luck!
"When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown, the dream is gone
And I have become comfortably numb."Pink Floyd