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Oh, screw going green diaper-wise. Once you have kids that goes right out the window. Disposable diapers are non-negotiable - that and air conditioning.

This is a real, known fetish. Don't get it, myself, but takes all kinds. I'd expect it had little to nothing to do with CSA. If you're unnerved talking about it here, without even looking I'm sure there are countless forums devoted to it.

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Is it really a diaper fettish or do you just not want to control your bladder?

I think it was about 5 years ago. I had to go in for some exploratory surgery. My urine flow was down to a trickle. I had to go to the bathroom multiple times at night. This screwed up my sleep worse than it was. (days were managible but still a pain)

So it wasn't prostrate cancer (relief). I was told that it was a restriction that was likely caused by some childhood physical trauma.

So when I woke up (what they gave me to put me under was really cool!) I had a hose coming out of my dick and a bag strapped to my leg. They really could have told me that this was a possibility. I was told it was to only have a look around.

So basically they did a roto-rooter job and I had bag to catch the urine. Not a lot of fun but there was one bright side. I was in court on an issue and things were runnin a bit long. The Crown lawyer had more than a bit of coffee at lunch and his eyes were swimming. He eventually had to call for a pee break and I graciously said OK. I didn't have to go anywhere as I had a lot of reserve capacity.

So later on a job site in the middle of nowhere (it was winter) I also had no problem with having to go. Just let it drain.

So anyway I'm just asking for some clarification as to the reason for the diaper as the real reason may change your options.

And if you just like being in wet diapers then I got no problem with that. Just think things through so you get what you are really after. And look into diaper rash.

After I finally had the tube removed it was like I had a fire hose. Wow what a difference. It shortly went back to normal. I was told I may need the same procedure in the future.

Well I have to say thanks, you have a awesom way to present your "obsession" and lighten it up at the same time. I am so full of fear and stop my self from posting all the time.

So I think your iner child thinking is likely. Lets say when your young diapers give you comfort, connection with nurture and care, the bulky swaddled fealing. And the freedom to just go with no stress and anxiety. And the more natural release and warmth.

This all gets taken away and shame and stress replace freedom to just go and the comfort and nurture.

I could see wanting that back as a way to self comfort.

I remember at maybe 3, taking a diaper out of the dresser and trying to put it on and going pee. I had already been potty trained.

I am in touch with all kind of fealing and thoughts as difrent life stages.

My 2 cents


If you give up the control can you get it back if you change your mind?

Hey Life,
good to see you to post about this issue. I don't know much about diaper fetishism but I'll add some my thoughts about my coping mechanism.
Firstly I'm glad that you decided to share such intimate things with us.
Please try to discuss it more, I hope someone with more experience could add to this discussion.
Please try to look why do you want to deal in destructive way to your body when you are speaking about "permanently disable my ability to hold it"? What are main feelings in background that force you to escape from reality into excitement of such ideas?
Are those some negative feelings like loneliness, fear or something similar? Are you have such thought after some happenings or talks?
Can you try to think more about it?
When you wrote about that way of "self injuring" I must add that I recognized some my patterns related to watching porn (when I also in some twisted way hurting my self). I went from some regular stuff to some very kinky.
In my case I don't think that is at all important what are exact details that are giving me highs. The more important is that I can't stand feelings of loneliness or when something bad is happening and I don't have any control over it, like some natural disaster.
In my therapy we are discovering slowly those negative feelings and believe me some of them are not at all connected to my experience as molested boy. Main drive are very negative feelings of isolation that I've experienced back in my childhood when I couldn't talk about some important issue (including touching by other boys) with my parents and particularity with my mum. When I see that some important people are not seeing my needs and don't give me any support in some moment when I need it and ask for it I'm desperate and very hurt. You can guess that I'll be browsing porn pages couple hours later if those feelings would stay with me, it just becomes overwhelming so I need to escape reality.
Sorry I don't want to hijack your post but I just wanted to share my experience about dealing with self destructive thoughts and actions.
I'm proud on you that you decided to talk about it here, you were very brave !
Keep sharing with us!

Pero

Hey Life's a dream,

Just a thought... could it be that the last time you felt truly safe and nurtured, was when you were in diapers? And that in wanting to wear them, you really want to go back to that time when you felt safe, nurtured and cared for?

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Hey Life, wow, you are sharing lately with us many your intimate details, what is happening?
Just kidding with you, it is great that you are brave enough to do so
You are here among friends.
Keep sharing with us!

Pero

Hey LAD,

I'm a nurse and I deal with adults in diapers all the time. No big deal for me! Freedom comes with honesty and disclosure. Keep it up and you'll get to the bottom of it...umm, no pun intended..

Jude

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Any other survivors out there with this same affliction quirk?

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You will need to add a Superhero symbol then.

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I like it.

There WAS a superhero, Diaperman, on the New Mighty Mouse cartoon in the '80s (the subversive Ralph Bakshi version with the supposed drug references). He eventually evolved into Training Pants Man.

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