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Hi Lee, based on his response that you wrote above, I think that he probably is remorseful. I don't know how old he was at the time and how old he is now but time and age does change us. If he was an adolescent he couldn't appreciate how bad a thing he did. Not saying that his actions should be excused but I hope that a lot of younger abusers would not have done what they had done if they had an idea of the effects on their victims.

In my case my abuser was an older friend. Maybe three years older than I was. While he had to know it was wrong but likely couldn't appreciate the damage he caused. (I hope he dies a horrible death for what he did to me and others. Forgiveness for me is not an option.)

Please take a look at "Disclosure and Confrontation" http://www.malesurvivor.org/ArchivedPages/singer3.html

Hey Guys

Just giving you an update.

I see my brother this Friday morning (4th of January) (Thursday afternoon/evening in US).

I am still planning what I am going to say to him and want to thank the guys that have offered advice.

More details later.

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Take care of yourself. Keep yourself safe and do not set expectations as what your abuser may say.

Keep well and best of luck.

Kevin

I leave to go on my pilgrimage in a few hours.

I am freaking out obviously. Guess it is to be expected.

More new flash backs etc.

I do feel deep inside it will be ok.

I need my friends around me now noe than ever and it means so much to me to know you guys are here. I couldn't do this alone. Actually I wouldn't have done this if I hadn't found the strength I got from being here and sharing in all your/our experiences. You have all helped me to get to this point. Every post....Every PM.

I hope I get the answers I need from my meeting.
I am scared to get them!
I don't know where they will take me.
I may just get a brother out of it rather than another perp.
That will be HARD to let go of (if I do let go)
Sometimes I still HATE him for what I became (a man whore)
But hey I guess I will see what happens.

Lee

FB,

We've got your back. Whatever happens, you have brother here who understand you.

Jude

Lee,

You have all of your considerable life accomplishments, everything you've struggled to beat and did, your loving wife and kids, all your friends / brothers here, AND basic human decency, rule of law, civilization itself, all on your side.... versus just his teenaged dick on the other side. He knows why you are confronting him and now it's his turn to be afraid.

We're all with you.

Matt

Lee,

You have this one in hand. You are the one with nothing to prove or account for. Keep cool and calm. Like I said earlier, you have personal and career/vocational success doing something you love. You accomplished all of this while bearing a terrible burden.

That is real strength.
We're all supporting you.

Will