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#420213 - 12/27/12 07:30 AM addictions
Dar Offline
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Registered: 11/15/11
Posts: 170
Loc: Missouri
Hi all, it has been a while since my last post and I just wanted to say HI and let you know how things have progressed.
I was seeind a sex abuse therapist for a few months which did help me get through some rough seas and helped to open my eyes to something that I had not even considered getting help for.
Sex addiction therapy! I thought that this was stupid since I now know why I was acting the way I was(sex abuse)and saw no reason to go through all the BS again with someone new.
I finally went to a SLAA meeting to see what this was all about.
Wow did this open my eyes to a whole new world in which I didnt think of. Many of the men in the meeting were also sexually abused as a child and were in fact acting out as I had in the past. Masterbation, porn, ect ect ect
I finally realized that I needed more help than the sex abuse therapist was capable of and she agreed.
I began seeing a sex addiction therapist and this has opened a whole new world of how I got to the point of where I was and most of all how to help control it. The sex addiction had morphined from my abuse as a teen into a full blown sexual animal and I thought that nothing was wrong with me. I just loved sex. maybe a little more than others, but after all I was a man and men love sex, Right?
Well come to find out, acting out two or three times a day was not normal for a man. I was using my addiction for a coping, feel good, or what ever I wanted it to be. And the list goes on and on.
So to make a very long story short! Once my abuse therapist had gone as far as she could go(which helped me greatly)I needed to learn how to substain from acting out again and have a way to cope with every day life situations that occour.
I have now been seeing a sexual addiction therapist for a while now and the simularity between the abuse and the addictions are almost one in the same. The differance is that the sex addiction thrapist took me much farther into my past problems and is basicly rewiring my brain.
Instead of looking for the next sex high, I am now looking for the next "Life High" and getting the same results so to speak. "Satisfaction" without remorse or harm to my self and family. This is a new way of living for me and I love it.
No more secrects, no more hiding my head in the sand. I am begining to feel alive again.
I still have a long way to go but if this trend continues, and I feel it will, maybe my past will be just that! "The past" not the future with my past holding me back.
God Bless
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#420218 - 12/27/12 09:03 AM . [Re: Dar]
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Registered: 08/25/11
Posts: 886
Loc: Bouvet Island
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Edited by Life's A Dream (01/12/13 09:22 PM)

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#420247 - 12/27/12 05:47 PM Re: addictions [Re: Life's A Dream]
Dar Offline
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Registered: 11/15/11
Posts: 170
Loc: Missouri
Life's A Dream; I hope you do give a second chance!
It has helped me understand so much more about my self. That I wasn't alone in my little world of crazyness.
There are no survivor meetings around where I live but this sure does feel like one, the story's, the support, helpful advice. Much like being here on Male Survivor.
No one judges me when I am there and I can say what is on my mind, just like we do here. I just know it has lifted my sprits and I hope it will yours and others too.
God Bless
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#420262 - 12/27/12 10:00 PM * [Re: Dar]
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Edited by Smalltown80sBoy (04/29/13 01:39 PM)

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#420273 - 12/28/12 12:02 AM . [Re: Dar]
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Edited by Life's A Dream (01/12/13 09:20 PM)

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#420286 - 12/28/12 05:22 AM Re: addictions [Re: Dar]
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Registered: 05/07/11
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Loc: Johannesburg South Africa
Hi Dar

I am so Happy for you man, what progress and what an awesome story. I hope that you and your wife can both recover from this, its tough, I am still going through huge crap in my marriage.

Hope to hear more inspiring news from you. Keep healing.

Martin
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#420288 - 12/28/12 06:38 AM Re: addictions [Re: Dar]
Jude Offline


Registered: 08/09/12
Posts: 1466
Loc: New England
Originally Posted By: Dar
......I thought that nothing was wrong with me. I just loved sex. maybe a little more than others, but after all I was a man and men love sex, Right?

Dar,

So familiar....the same kind of rationalizations for sex, drugs, and alcohol. Its like all the pedophiles got together and wrote a book called : "How To Really Fuck Up Men's Lives" and chapter one was "Addictions".

Glad to hear of your progress, keep it up.

Jude
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Said the joker to the thief,
There's too much confusion, I can't get no relief."
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#420379 - 12/29/12 10:38 AM Re: addictions [Re: Dar]
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Registered: 08/23/12
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Loc: Australia
Dar

Thanks for sharing...my T wants me to go to a 'non specific' group for addiction (mine is sexual obviously) - it is based on the 12 steps. I live in the country and this is the closest thing I am likely to find to SLAA.

I could have written this:
Quote:
.... I thought that nothing was wrong with me. I just loved sex. maybe a little more than others, but after all I was a man and men love sex, Right?
Well come to find out, acting out two or three times a day was not normal for a man. I was using my addiction for a coping, feel good, or what ever I wanted it to be. And the list goes on and on.


I am so scared to open up to a group that isn't 'full' of guys who know what it took to get me where I am....that they will think the worst of me. But I will give it a go.

Quote:

Instead of looking for the next sex high, I am now looking for the next "Life High" and getting the same results so to speak. "Satisfaction" without remorse or harm to my self and family. This is a new way of living for me and I love it.
No more secrects, no more hiding my head in the sand. I am begining to feel alive again.


This is what I want for myself and this is why I will go to that meeting.....I hope for my sake that there will be other survivors there. (even though I don't wish that on anyone - but you know what I mean)

Lee
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#420384 - 12/29/12 12:12 PM Re: addictions [Re: Dar]
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Registered: 11/27/12
Posts: 134
Loc: Washington State
Hi all, thank you for this.
I just keep getting more and more blessed by your honesty and courage.

Jude your post was brilliant. So true, and yet I am still laughing. I do a lot of self intertaining with such thoughts. Laughing at the pain in life may be a coping mechanism. I prefer it over crying.

I just remembered a time long ago when I could not cry or laugh. I had to shut off all emotion. After a year or so went by I realized that I could not cry. I would try to, but all that came out was a yawn and my emotions were gone. Odd. But eventually I could let out a bit. I had to learn to laught and cry all over again. It took quite a wile. Strang thing was that my crys would quickly turn to laughs and laughs to crys. Strange, yes, but I realized that crying and laughing were somehow conected. The ability to release emotion is a true gift.

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#420388 - 12/29/12 12:37 PM Re: addictions [Re: Farmer Boy]
SmartShadow Offline


Registered: 11/27/12
Posts: 134
Loc: Washington State
Hay Lee,

Been in a lot of group. Going to a non sexual specific group may prove a challenge but can still have some benofits. You may want to ask the person in charge of the group if sexual addiction is an area that they cover in the process. And ask about other addiction and how much they focus on addiction. I you are there with other addicts and the primary focus is support and recovery from addictions you will benofit. If its just a feal good 12 steps because everybody has there stuff, but if addiction is not the main focus then you may want to look if there are other option avalable. Some times you half to drive to a city to find a workable addiction group.

Keep up the work, it pays off,

Sincerely,
Mike

Former sex addict.


Edited by SmartShadow (12/29/12 01:38 PM)

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