It took decades to get enough courage but I finally told my older brother today. I was sure he was going to tell me I was mistaken or making it up but he didn't. I had never let on to anyone in my family - I was 9 at the time. He said he had wondered because he felt I had 'hinted' of it before but he couldn't ever see it. As I explained it to him he started to understand. What was weird was the man behind the abuse was also one of my brothers favorite teachers growing up that really helped him out - one by giving my brother his first real job and two by sending my brother a wedding gift 5 years later (without even getting an invitation). That is one of the weird parts. I feel the man was buying my silence. By doing such nice things for my brother, certainly if I ever tried to tell, my brother wouldn't believe me because the man was so nice to him. I am feeling great today because someone believe me.

Webelos -

i am so happy for you that you were able to take this big step and that the results were positive. so good to have your brother on your team. congratulations!

lee

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The overwhelming feeling right now is that the silence is breaking. There was a contractual agreement with my head that my body never accepted. I was forced into secrecy and everything turned into code. Along the way I needed and continue to need to find a way to break the code.

Webelos,
I am so proud of you. This is such a huge step in the right direction and journey to healing. It seems that the people closest to me are the hardest to talk to this about. Not they aren't willing to listen to what we have to say, but the strange thoughts in our own heads feeding into the silence.
So,so,so proud of you!
Randy

((((Webelos))))

Disclosure is great. What a wonderful Christmas present to give yourself. So thankful your brother responded well.

I disclosed to a 1st cousin last week. It makes us stronger when we do.

Cant

I'm so happy that your brother responded so well. It took great courage to do that. Our perps teach us to believe that no one will believe us or that its our fault, I'm glad you didn't let that message win

Jason

Hi Webelos

Welcome to what I deem to be the first step of empowering your self. I became less ashamed of my past when I began to talk about it.

Keep going brother and heal well
Martin

Awesome,

Good for you. !!!

Man that is just so awesom!

Webelos,

You are likely right about this. Its classic pedophile behavior to cover their tracks this way. Good for your brother for have put you first and believed you. And good for you for taking this step. Its scary as hell, but the relief you've gotten is worth it.

Jude